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Selfish

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Walk to the end of the line
See me dying here I'm just fine
We'll end up at the start again
As long as I know it will never end
This race of time has taken it's toll
This run of life is killing my soul
And the friendship that we had formed
Broken in pieces, smashed to the floor

A love of sorts that will never age
Like a burning candle that never fades
And jealousy writhes in me
Like an animal that will never be free
And the clocks on the wall tell the time
Of a place and day where nothing is fine
Where the friendships we had formed
Had broken into pieces and smashed to the floor

A simple note, a passing glance
A fleeting moment of selfishness
I try to cry but it won't come
It's makes me ashamed, this thing I've become
Like a beast with a perfect face
Or a monk on a quest with no fate
Like a human that has been transformed
A vampire that begs for more

And you were there, sitting here
When I opened the cage and dissapeared
Only to tell you my greatest confession
My love of this friendship has ended session
The pupils of mind are done with learning
The third eye on my face is burning
The walls around me start to crumble
I try to walk but fall and stumble

And it's hard to know whether you're faking
Or whether this creation you are making
But you don't know
I don't care
I'm just a selfish bastard who gets in your hair
And it's hard to love, it's hard to speak
It's to realize we're both weak
But you don't know
And I don't care
I'm just a selfish bastard who gets in your hair

My own private suicide I had planned
A glorious funeral, buried in the sand
Then I saw your tears lighten your face
I cancel the reservations for my disgrace
Now I can see this God himself
He says I care about myself
Is that so bad? Is that okay?
If we weren't selfish we'd be dead today

A support system that already failed
A ship that dropped anchor before it set sail
A door to a place where illusions are real
And the things that could feel can no longer feel
This place where I live, invite you inside
Where the clocks on the wall tell the time
Of a place where nothing is fine
And my sins are not a crime

This race of course, could end right now
But you will not allow
Exhausted to the point of death
I have a feeling this is my last breath
Demons haunt me and talk to me about
The things that are real and the things that I doubt
Soon the devil makes a proposal
If I can see her one last time I will give him my soul

And so now you see
This selfish beast is me
I can't open the cage
I can never be free
But it's okay
I'm all alone
With my friendship lost
And my future know

And it's hard to know whether you're faking
Or whether this creation you are making
But you don't know
I don't care
I'm just a selfish bastard who gets in your hair
And it's hard to love, it's hard to speak
It's to realize we're both weak
But you don't know
And I don't care
I'm just a selfish bastard who gets in your hair

Selfish to the bone
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It took me three hours to write this. In that time, I cried, punched the walls and skipped about with joy. This is my life.
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Metallica-metalfest's avatar
This is really good. Beautiful rhyming, it makes the piece more or less together.